by Julie Conaron

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Julie and David have been married for 35 years.  Now David has been fully
in the spiritual world for over 2 1/2 years, and Julie has never felt alone since.

 BITTER-SWEET

A poem to David from Julie

When we were “young and in love,” as you once said,
We wrote our loving poems.
Now I write mine to you my love,
Having yours with me in my dreams.

We are together – yet “apart”
I live my life alone – yet always with you.
I ache to sense your natural wisdom
Yet revel in your spiritual presence.

My (natural) eyes blind me to your face
My ears clog up your loving voice
Yet I connect to you my love
Within my spiritual mind and love.

I listen to the music that we love
And sense your love around me there.
I read the Word – your arms are draped around my neck
I weep – you are so close
But my eyes and arms seem empty.

This life is just a twinkling in the eternal
We are connected through our “separate” lives
We are united in our path together
Our love the bond that joins us.

The natural cord that bound us is now cut
I miss it – yet I don’t.
I hold on tight to the spiritual one we have
The one that keeps me sane and hopeful.

My life is full – yet empty of your physical presence
My love is strong – but my arms no longer hold you
My lips can’t kiss yours yet – or can they?
I am alone – yet feel you in and around me.

My beloved – I long to hold you
To return the love I feel from you
I will continue my life in this world
To serve the Lord as He wants me to
One day this transitional life too will end – and I will join you fully once again.

Written in October 2005, 31 months after David’s passage